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My warden wishes for me to do something that I now believe I cannot do because of my very nature.
She wishes for me to find a role model, someone I wish to live my life like, but I think my ambition is to great for that, because in order to want to be like another, one must be willing to choose to not surpass all. I admire the gods, but even they cannot fill this role, for I do not wish to simply live like the gods, but to be a god and usurp them if I can.
Of course, I have little intention of doing this now, for I have seen the destruction that would have been caused should I attempt this, but I still cannot bring myself to want the traits of another person.
Perhaps this is her purpose. To bring me to want this, I must see others as not only my equal, but my superior, but perhaps it is too much for me. I have yet to meet the person I see as anything but inferior, though often inferior and convenient, or as a temporary equal that I must surpass. This, I know, makes me crazy in the eyes of some others, but it is my nature and I cannot deny it.
She wishes for me to find a role model, someone I wish to live my life like, but I think my ambition is to great for that, because in order to want to be like another, one must be willing to choose to not surpass all. I admire the gods, but even they cannot fill this role, for I do not wish to simply live like the gods, but to be a god and usurp them if I can.
Of course, I have little intention of doing this now, for I have seen the destruction that would have been caused should I attempt this, but I still cannot bring myself to want the traits of another person.
Perhaps this is her purpose. To bring me to want this, I must see others as not only my equal, but my superior, but perhaps it is too much for me. I have yet to meet the person I see as anything but inferior, though often inferior and convenient, or as a temporary equal that I must surpass. This, I know, makes me crazy in the eyes of some others, but it is my nature and I cannot deny it.
